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9 day of wedding anticipation

On the 9th day before my wedding…
I went to the mall. Again.
I have been going to the mall once a week for about the past month. But this week, I went twice.
I bought a going-away dress at Charlotte Russe and lots of shoes for the groomsmen at H&M.
I have been to Macy’s to find one of those shapers that are impossible to get into, but make my curvy shape look nice and smooth under my fitted wedding dress. I literally broke out into a sweat trying these spandex suits on and it took me so long to get one off and another on that they were very hard to compare. Finally, I bought two and took them home to ask my mom for her recommendation.
I have been to Charming Charlie’s to look at jewelry. Of course I couldn’t decide what to buy without my personal stylist Karyn, so I had to buy two separate sets. I figured that I would consult with Karyn and then return the set that she voted out. After all, I already knew that I would have to return with the rejected shaper.
I also went to Victoria’s Secret and had quite an experience there. Unfortunately, I had consumed a latte on an empty stomach and was feeling shaky from the caffeine. It was warm in the store and they wanted to size me again. This was quite the process of trying many things on and either they have changed their sizing to make normal people believe that they need a larger size or this lady had no idea what she was doing because the size that she recommended was completely different from what I have been wearing my whole life as a woman. I didn’t feel good and I just wanted to get my free pair of fabulous underwear and my 7 mix and match for $26. Finally, two bra’s and all that underwear later, I stumbled back into the florescent light of the mall and tried to reorient myself. After I returned to my senses, I knew that I had to return one of the bra’s, but the other was really pretty, so I kept that one.
I am hoping to be done with the mall now, but I can’t be sure. There are still 8 days after today left until my wedding.

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